Saturday, 28 November 2009

Sleeping Difficulty....

Since i felt sick since 3 days ago....I've not been getting enough sleep.... its barely 4 hours a day i sleep.. i feel so tired and exhausted but i just cant seem to sleep... i keep asking myself. 'Is there anything you are bothered about or worried'. I can't seem to find the answer at all.

I follow my sleeping schedule,like sleeping at around 11.30pm but the moment its almost 2.30pm..I'm wide awake till dawn which gives me only 3 hrs of sleep in a  day as during the day I'm at work or running errands. Then finally i decided to Google under sleep problems and this is what i found out.....

Insomnia
Insomnia is itself often a symptom of other problems. Typical patterns of insomnia include the inability to fall asleep or stay asleep at night, waking up earlier than usual, and daytime fatigue. Most people with insomnia don't fall asleep in inappropriate situations, like driving. If this does occur, it may signal that a medical disorder (such as sleep apnea) is the cause of insomnia.
Sleep Apnea
Excessive daytime sleepiness is the primary symptom. Some people will deny sleepiness but feel fatigued. Other symptoms are snoring, snorting, and gasping sounds when you sleep -- often first noticed by a sleeping partner. Restless or unrefreshed sleep is also typical, as are headaches in the morning.
Narcolepsy
Excessive sleepiness during the day, alleviated by naps, is a symptom of narcolepsy. Dreaming during naps and experiencing dream-like hallucinations as you fall asleep are also warning signs. Loss of muscle control (called cataplexy) that occurs with emotion, such as laughing or anger, and the inability to move as you're going to sleep or waking up (called sleep paralysis) are also symptoms.
Restless Leg Syndrome
The primary warning sign is the irresistible urge to move your legs shortly after you get into bed, in the middle of the night after awakening, or even when wide awake during the day. It usually feels better if you get up to walk around or rub your leg. "Creepy-crawly" or twitching feeling in your calves, feet, thighs, or arms are symptoms of restless leg syndrome -- the sensations of discomfort can be quite varied. Kicking or twitching leg movements during sleep, and sometimes while awake, may be warning signs.

I think i likely fall under the insomnia category. Which made me to Google more to get more information on Insomnia and the treatment and here are my remarks too......

Insomnia
Once you and your doctor have ruled out any medical problems that may be causing your insomnia, you might try self-care methods. "Good sleep hygiene" refers to practices you can follow to help ensure adequate, quality sleep.
   Good sleep hygiene:
  • Stick to a regular bedtime schedule. Try to get out of bed at the same time each morning, even if it's a weekend or holiday. - its a regular routine to wake up ever Mon - Fri at the same time... sat i wake up late.. this is been going on for the past year.... Y suddenly a change?
  • Avoid napping during the day. - i don't sleep during the day at all
  • Avoid stressful activities and vigorous exercise for two hours before going to bed. Do exercise regularly, but earlier in the day. - I've been skipping this activity due to time constrain.
  • Before going to bed, try relaxation techniques, such as deep breathing, yoga, or meditation. - will need to try it out soon
  • Make sure your bedroom is dark, quiet, and cool. Use earplugs or eye shades if needed. - my room curtain's are thick, quiet and cool with a/c
  • Leave the bedroom if you can't sleep. Go into another room and read, or do something relaxing and quiet. - if i were to do that, then need to answer my uncle who doesn't sleep according to the time as he is still  trying to adjust from UK timing. Moreover i feel so comfy in my own room.
  • Avoid substances that contain caffeine, such as coffee, tea, soft drinks, or diet pills. - never took them
  • Avoid alcohol and nicotine before bed. - i did drink red wine but normal circumstances i would sleep off early
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    I need a solution fast enough so that this doesn't effect my health in a long run. Any suggestions??
     

    Tuesday, 27 October 2009

    Graduation - 09

    Finally... the word that i so wana hear after slogging my ass out for almost 1 year 6mths.....

    24th October 09 would be the happiest day even though it was for my Diploma. At least mum and dad had an opportunity seeing their only daughter graduating... i hope my brother keeps this an an example and graduate faster. I would definitely would want to set an example for him even knowing I'm not the best sister in the world. the below pics will explain my mood and atmosphere of the day.














    Thursday, 8 October 2009

    Maintanence list

    After what had happen on my past experience with guys, i don't even want to think about getting into anything serious or wat so ever. But yes... i did but didn't put on high hopes and the fear or being rejected and being pinned down cannot be tolerated anymore. I've got to things about the future and myself.

    Everyone thinks I'm with A but the true fact is we are just closed friends and we have both talked about it. Nothing to rush about. How do i rectify the comments and thinking that i and A are just friends. People do not make assumptions based on what do you see.

    Then comes B & C who are foreigners, gosh.. i cant handle locals..then how to handle foreigners.

    D is A's cousin.... whom i have a chemistry with.. we do go out but secretly because we do not want A to think of anything. Blood ties are always strong.

    E comes along as my associates but knows A & D. Will i ever find someone who is not related to A at all to make things easier for me. E and i do have a chemistry but he's not here right.. so i do have a long time break to adjust when ever the meet up is.

    Lastly is F...whom i meet while clubbing. Also a foreigner, never thought he will be like any other guys around.. just wana be with you for fun and then forget you after that day. He went back to .... and drop me an email. He's trying to get me a job where ever he is...

    The morale that i got from here would be.. never judge a book by its cover and you need to move on in life... you need a guy...

    Monday, 7 September 2009

    Selfish??

    In accordance to the wikiepedia, SELFISH denotes the precedence given in thought or deed to the self, i.e., self interest or self concern. It is the act of placing one's own needs or desires above the needs or desires of others. Selfishness is the opposite of altruism (selflessness).

    The implications of selfishness have inspired divergent views within religious, philosophical, psychological, economic and evolutionary contexts.

    At times, i do feel i am selfish because of my doings. But how much can we do to satisfy other rather than our own self?

    Wednesday, 2 September 2009

    Mixed up feelings!!

    FEELINGS!! is the nominalization of "to feel". The word was first used in the English language to describe the physical sensation of touch either through experience or perception. (from Wikipedia).

    I think i am going through a dilemma within myself because of someone that i like. It's been ages since i ever felt like this... is it because i spend most of my time with him or is it a feeling that i cannot cheat myself or is it a feeling that you have when you are being very close to someone.

    Talking things out and sharing things will be a good start... but that is just not me to do that!!... I am a very conservative person and would rather keep my feelings then sharing.... I have made the first move once.. saying i am starting to like you.. the response was good as he likes me but we will both see how far can this go on when the time comes we will decide what to do for the future.. like take it up to the next level.

    Last nite... we had a talk... i was high on my Actifed but managed to talked sense to him.. at this one point he said that '' tell out what ever you wan to say to that someone now if not its going to be too late or you would not have a chance anymore!''. Did he mean something in his sentence, was it hitting on me to tell out my feelings towards him.... I was tempted to.. but thinking again.. all the obstacles we would be facing and also the past experience.. I'm pretty sure that the both of us cannot commit ourselves yet.

    Questioning myself on the situation back again... ''Am i ready to commit myself into a relationship with him or not?'' , ''Is he ready for it also, has he overcome his past?'' , ''Will things change if i were to tell out my feelings and now his feelings have change'' , ''Can he accept my past and future; whereby i myself is not sure?''.

    I'm not in love with him yet but i do get restless if i do not speak or see him for a day... i always think of him, i can actually tolerate his craziness and also him teasing me, and etc....
    Can i deny myself from not loving him???

    I know the feeling of sweet and bitter love!! So i am pretty sure that i am not in love yet with him but wouldn't mind to take the relationship to the next level.... its been almost 3 mths plus that i have been with him.... and getting to know him better even though knowing him for the past 6 years plus.

    I think i will tell him my true feelings when i'm really ready and also that i can manage the relationship so tat we both wouldn't fall back in what happen in the past with the both of us. Shall not make the past a barrier to move forward but the barrier will always be there and trying to make you take a step behind.

    Saturday, 29 August 2009

    Ramadhan

    The holiest month for the Muslim have finally arrived... 'Bulan Ramadhan'. The time we are waiting for good food and also trying hands to fast like our fellow friends.

    I have personally tried to fast but only lasted half day as i was feeling hungry, had gastric and it freaking cold in the office.. I need food to keep me warm.

    Looking around the Klang valley area, there are a lots of Bazaar Ramadhan being set up....namely would be:

    TTDI, Bangsar, KL Sentral (in front of Sooka), Jalan TAR, Wangsa Maju and etc.....



    So to all Muslim followers, i would like to wish you ''Selamat Berpuasa''

    Monday, 24 August 2009

    Flu season

    You do not wan to fall sick, and when you do.... it just doesn't go away easily.... below are the symptom for some one having flu and etc....

    The flu is characterized by a collection of symptoms that can often occur suddenly, including:

    1. Fever (higher than 100° F)
      A fever occurs when your body temperature increases in response to illness or injury. Your temperature is considered elevated when it is higher than 100°F.
    2. Chills
      Body chills that are not related to a cold environment can be a sign of the flu.
    3. Headache
      A headache associated with the flu may appear suddenly, and be related to body aches or nasal congestion you're experiencing.
    4. Extreme tiredness
      It's normal to feel tired at the end of a long day or when you don't get adequate sleep, but unexplained tiredness can be a sign of the flu.
    5. Dry cough
      Know your cough. A productive cough (coughing up mucus) is common with a cold, while a non-productive or dry cough (with no mucus) is associated with the flu.
    6. Sore throat
      Swelling in the throat can lead to a sore throat.
    7. Runny nose
      Runny nose may also occur but is more common in children than adults.
    8. Muscle aches
      While it is normal to feel body aches from physical overexertion, body aches that are sudden and unexplained can be a sign of the flu.
    9. Stomach symptoms
      Stomach symptoms such as nausea, vomiting and diarrhea are more common in children than in adults
    10. Chest discomfort
      Chest discomfort is often severe with the flu.
    I am still recovering from my flu..... haiz... medication after medication will not help at all. But i did have a good rest after 3 days of MC.

    Tuesday, 18 August 2009

    Nite Outs!!

    When you started drinking and clubbing at a very young age...... now at 20++ you just don't wan to go clubbing. You would prefer to sit a old man's club...drink, play pool, check out hot chicks.... cute guys.... and so on! The list will move on and on....

    Last Friday, Kay sends a msg about her frenz club which was having a free flow of cocktails for ladies and it was a retro nite. I just didn't wana go moreover it was a Friday nite@Bangsar.... no parking, place would be dam cramped.... Arnold had to talk sweet words and walla... i was heading to Bangsar at 11pm.

    Atmosphere was good.... music was sucky!!! Some Traxx Fm Deejay who was playing 60's and retro... despite the numerous request from the owner himself.... our fren here decided to play his own music and entertain himself....

    You couldn't even dance continuously for 3 songs in a row till you're tired coz.. after one R&B song.. he switches to oldies or retro... i bet he must have got a lot of Boooo.........sssss that nite.




    Over all..it was a awesome nite. Enjoyed myself seeing Kay tipsy and dancing and etc.....
    Can't wait for PD now!!!!

    Couples retreat should i call it?? Expect the fact that i am single still and someone else is single also which is joining in.

    Thursday, 13 August 2009

    Being Myself

    This is me

    Free as the wind that blows through the trees,
    Active as the buzzing of the energetic bees,
    Wild as the flowers that grow in the field,
    But as calm as the deep blue ocean

    My smile is extra bright,
    And the love I give is just right,
    I'm so happy about my life,
    That my soul just shines,
    Even when life begins to taste like a sour lime,

    I'm not your average young lady,
    Jewels, diamonds, and pearls are things I don't need,
    To love, respect and honor is my creed,
    So I'll always keep it real,

    I am what I am
    Young, Black and Be-you-ti-full,
    I do the best I can,
    I will never change because I know me just being, is enough,
    I can only be me and that's all I will ever strive to be....

    Thursday, 6 August 2009

    Penang Holiday

    For the first time i went to St.Anne's feast in BM. My whole 22 years.. WOW!!! but the other reason i went there was to relax my mind from all the unwanted pressure and tension that was building up in within myself. It was really beautiful and i felt very peace and calm despite seeing wat i didn't wan to see in church. I still felt at peace for the last 3 days whereby no unwanted or anonymous calls or sms. My phone battery did last and so did my mood.





    We had lots of fun together with Arnold's family and Rupi. Sadly we didn't manage to get over to the island for our makan makan fiesta. The best part was watching the brothers having bonding session on the hotel room at Penang. They all decided not to tell me about the cemetery that was beside the hotel. No wonder it was cheap.. RM 88 per nite. Let me see Edwin the next time to question him but the other good part was it was very close to his house and i didn't have disturbance sleep except from the snoring sounds of pigs with me and the extravaganza 'char kway teow' session in the bathroom.

    Trice i am still not over it.... revenge will come one fine day!!!

    New gadget!!

    HP fair was held at Mutiara Complex... once used to be my second home after school!!! Memories memories.....
    Mum decided to got here to get Papa a phone for his birthday and since he has been using mu mum's phone for the past 2 month. Poor mum.... couldn't call me often enough to do spot check ..hehehe

    so we went say abt 7pm and intentionally to by a hp for him but ended me buying a touch screen hp. I liked it for its dual sim card usage, despite all the other features sucks... it was RM 300... oklah... I'm still keeping my Samsung... it has been my favorite and faithful phone. Int he end dad ended up using his old phone.. i do feel bad tho... i think i will but him a new one next month....

    shall go and take more photos fof my phone and publish it really soon. ..

    Ungrateful People

    Sometimes i do wonder why on earth are there ungrateful people still being in the midst of us. Or either those who do not understand that I'm hating you after what you did to me and my future...

    Don't you realize that i came back to after the funeral to make use of you.... to get information and to get the truth from you. My hopes for you have died on the 5/11/06 & 9/12/2006.

    Many times the reminder has been given to you.. do not disturb my family and friends... but still you do.... you only know how to embarrass me but took into consideration of my feelings and dignity....


    Your family's dignity is much more higher compared to what i have gone through for you... Yes i was dumb at one point of time... rejected my family and frenz... thought you're my world... Now i realize that you played me out!! Cheated me!!

    Now when i am happy, moving on in life, finding back my path in my life, graduating soon, getting back my blood and flesh.... finding and liking someone else.. who makes me happy, who understands me and my past.....

    This is when you come up and mess up my life.... You wana tell people about our get back..go ahead....my frenz all know about it...they know my personal life more than you do. You wan to threaten me go on.. I'm just used to it and there is no way i am going to bow down to you anymore.

    Please do not disturb me anymore.... i wan to be happy again and live my life.

    Wednesday, 5 August 2009

    Accident / Incident - My Car

    My beautiful car had dents and also scratches all because of my stupidity.... yes i admit... 'kebodohan sendiri' till i wasn't concentrating while taking me car out from the car park space. I knock into the side wall. My turning radius was so bad till i didn't realize that i went happily scratching the walls and my car. (this happen like a month ago)

    It happened to my left back tyre casing. I had to take it to wax it in Kepong. Every time i look it.. it heart sickening. I'm still waiting for my time to take it to the mechanic for a minor repair.

    Today morning i found a long scratch mark on the passenger side door. Yesterday morning the passenger side mirror was turned out wards. I'm guessing that particular person must have done it. I do not have any enemies at the place i stay, i keep away from everyone, how one earth would i have unknown enemies???

    Do i need to plea to that particular person from intefering in to my personal life and people around me!! Wat else must i do so that person stays away from me and my family and frens. that person knows that i love my car so much so with this intention, he thinks that i would be fine/ok with him again. Please think!!

    I do not know what to do with the scratch mark on the car door. Can i wax it and get it off or i don't know??? How am i to drive around with the scratch and not thinking about it!! OMG!!! someone should tell him off to find a life and stop destroying my life.....

    Tuesday, 4 August 2009

    Back in Action!!

    Its been ages since i ever had time to update my blog and write up some stories to fill in my time. Lots of things have been happening around at this point of time. Time is rushing past. The moment we wake up the next thing we know its already the next day... how are we going to keep up with the work, personal life and etc when there is not enough time in a day for us.

    24hours.... i wonder what can be done.. A lot of things I'm sure.... this is when the term 'Time Management' comes in place.... how many of us can actually management ourselves well...
    defiantly not me... with work hectic, final project paper submission this 20th... oh gosh!!! family issues especially with my darling bro, personal life with dumb and arrogant people around me.


    Will be updating soon with more pics on the recent activities for the year..... a lot of 'Jejak Kasih' incident took place and things are getting more interesting day by day.....


    Till then.. the next post!!